What
can you say about the only woman who allowed you to know the true feeling of
love in a romantic sense? Although it lasted slightly over one year, I am so
fortunate to have had that small amount of time and experienced that feeling.
How truly fortunate for all the lovers of the world who have experienced it
for 20, 30, 50 years or more. Their lives may be complete but at least I am
able to understand their good fortune and I salute you all.
The feelings I felt while with Lady X, and I call them feelings because the word
LOVE does not do them justice, were the most intensely satisfying and eventually
the most painful emotions I have ever had to deal with. I loved her more than
life. Always will I suppose, although at a much lesser level now. When you love
someone that much, it can not be discarded that easily, if ever, but rather
only placed in a special part of your heart buried deep within your greatest
memories of life.
But I was not the only one to feel pain. It was during this time in my life
when I could not handle rejection very well. This made for a very unstable
and unsettling breakup. I acted in such a manner as to bring great shame to
me as a person and great mental harm to her as well. I am fortunate, indeed,
that today we at least are on speaking terms.
I have nothing but the greatest respect and admiration for this woman. Unfortunately
it has been brought to my attention that any actions on my part to make her
life more pleasant today does nothing more than make her uncomfortable. Although
I do not understand this, I have vowed not to get involved in any way with her
life from this day forward.
So I am left with so many wonderful memories. These memories include:
I have asked for permission to use her name and place her picture on here but received no
response so none will be provided. I would only put her name and pic with her permission.
But make no doubt about it. She is the greatest woman I have
ever known and has given me a lifetime of memories. I have always wished the
best for her and her family. I say it again. Thank you Lady X. You are wonderful
and I have been so lucky to have known you.
Picnicing in Metropolitan park and watching our
dog, Jackie, run speedily past us enjoying this new world, only to be unable
to stop at the river wall and go falling into the water. Immediate panic from
all of us wondering if she knew how to swim. She could, but it was still a memory.
Trying to drive home one night in a nasty snow storm in my 1961 Pontiac
Bonneville Convertible. We got stuck so I had her steer while I got out and pushed. After
numerous failed attempts and falling down into the snow several times, we finally
made it home.
The day I came home from the drag strip with her lamp trophy. She
was so excited to see I had won.
The night of the fire that eventually burned out the entire upstairs
of the house while the dog kept trying to run back in as we waited outside for
the fire department to show up.
The delectable meals she made just before going to work. We would
all eat and then I would watch the kids.
And how could I forget when she came out to visit and we went to
Dino's Restaurant located at 77 Sunset Strip. I was so embarassed. I did not
know "a la carte" meant "each item only." But we survived
that and our trip to Las Vegas where we laughed so hard at the comedy of the
Kim Sisters.
There is one memory however, that we do not share. That is of her
sending me the song by Bobbi Martin while I was in the Navy. The name of the
song..."Don't Forget I Still Love You." To this day, she says she can not remember
sending it. Trust me. That is not something I am likely to forget. Oh well.
One memory, slightly damaged.